Last night we pulled out a box of old VHS tapes and found a home video of our trip to the Grand Canyon. We went 2 months after we were married. We laughed at how much thinner and younger we looked even though it was only 7 years ago. At one point in the video, I was taping while riding in the car looking out the window at the desert. I said, "I feel so sick to my stomach...must be riding while trying to videotape." Maybe so... but as we found out when we got back home, it could have been because I was pregnant! We had an almost honeymoon baby 10 months after we were married. This little guy really changed my life (for the better!) I was so aware of the consequences of every decision that I made and I all of sudden understood the awesome responsibility that comes with being a mother. Then when we found out that we were pregnant again I had so many emotions... one being the worry that I wouldn't have enough room in my heart to love a second child like I love my first. I worried for nothing because when he was born I immediately was in love again. I was overcome with how much love I held for this little guy in my heart and how much our Heavenly Father must love us. Even though my heart and my days were full or so it seemed... God placed in our hearts to have another. This was a big step for us and my husband and I wondered if we could handle having three (if you know how many we have you are laughing right now!) So In March of 2006, we welcomed our precious third baby boy. He is truly a delight. By the way, the jump from 2 to 3 is EASY! He was a breeze. I can honestly say that I have never taken our boys for granted. But, as you probably know, the Smith family was not complete in God's eyes. We prayed (and prayed and prayed) about having a 4th. Some days our pray was more like... "God are you SURE we should have another one?" Then we were overjoyed when we found out we were pregnant with our 4th (hee hee). I went through several weeks of battling thoughts like... how in the world am I going to manage 4 kids? That worry went right out the window when we went in for our ultrasound and were told that we were pregnant with twins. People ask me all the time... ," how did you feel when you found out there were 2?" I can truly tell them, "That was one of the HAPPIEST moments in my life." We laughed, we cried, we hooped and hollered. The nurses and doctors (who know us well by now) laughed and celebrated with us. In July of 2008 we became a family of 7 when we added our 2 precious twin boys to the crew.
So, as you can see the last 7 years in our family have been full of wonder and blessings. I was taken back to the that awesome feeling of contentment when you KNOW that you are right were God wants you to be and you are SO glad that God gave you the ability to be obedient and available to Him. Sometimes we miss it big time and we look back and wish we would have gone with God's plan. I know I have. I am so thankful that he always has a backup plan and although it won' t be the same as if we would have follow His plan the first time... He has great things in store for us IF we will put fear and worry aside and go in Faith to accomplish the things He has for us.
If you are feeling that nudge to go in a direction that doesn't quiet make sense to you but you somehow know that is God nudging you then Go FOR IT! If it is God's plan for you then you won't regret it, you will be richly blessed and SO thankful when you get there and look back on it.
here are my rewards from youngest to oldest (see post below for the recent additions:)
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And what beautiful blessings they are!
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